Glimpses

I feel like I get glimpses of myself nowadays, like someone with Alzheimer's. I went from having weeks on and off to having hours on and off during the day. The "off" hours can be minor or they can be devastating. Today I am running at about 80%, and yesterday was a good day - I felt like I was at 95% most of the day. The days leading up to that were not so good. I went to work Tuesday through Thursday but it was a real struggle for me to get going and I had moments while I was at work where I wanted to cry in my cube. But, it's good for me to stay busy and I'm proud of myself for fighting through it. I'm sick of fighting, though. It's exhausting. I have to keep moving. I have a lot to fight for.