Follow your instinct

"It's a sad thing to live your life without this deep-rooted sense of connection to your purpose. Like a lightbulb without a lamp, this kind of disconnect fosters dark and foreboding feelings in the soul. Whether you are the manager or the employee, the homemaker or the home builder, what matters most is that you have been awakened to your purpose and enlightened to the inner fulfillment that it affords."
-Bishop T. D. Jakes

Summer Events Around Saint Louis

My coworker, Anna Brown, did an amazing job putting together a schedule of summer activities in St. Louis. Way to be awesome, Anna!

There is no excuse to being bored in St. Louis over the summer.

What else do we need to add? Let me know and I'll put it on the list!

Art Hill Film Series         

http://www.slam.org/filmseries/          

9 p.m .Showtime, party starts at 7 p.m.

• Friday, July 5^th - Casablanca
• Friday, July 12^th - West Side Story
• Friday, July 19^th - The Princess Bride
• Friday, July 26^th - Roman Holiday

Boathouse Forest Park 

http://www.boathouseforestpark.com/bands.php        

7 p.m.

Friday & Saturday Live Music

Boat Rental 4 person $15/per hour

Brewery Tours                 

http://www.budweisertours.com/z01/index.php/age-gate/
June-August

• Mon-Sat: 9 a.m. - 5 p.m
• Sun: 11:30 a.m. - 5 p.m.

Biergarten Now Open

• Mon-Sat: 11 a.m. – 8 p.m.
• Sun: 11 a.m. – 6 p.m.

A Celebration of Food & Beer Featuring:

• 17 Beers
• Beer Flights
• Brewmaster Tastings
• Delicious food
• Clydesdale Appearances (3 p.m.)

Bierfest – April 19^th 12-3 p.m. $25/person

Children’s Garden Club

http://www.stlouisco.com/Portals/8/docs/Document%20Library/parks/PDFs/CGC/GardenClubCalendar.pdf

9 a.m. on the first Saturday of each month (except July & September)

• May 3rd, 2014 Annual & Vegetables – Compliments Wiethop’s Greenhouses @ Jefferson Barracks part of the Home Front Exhibit Ordinance Bldg. – Victory Garden
• June 7th, 2014 Plant colorful annual combo – Sherwood Forest Nursery & Garden Center, 2651 Barrett Station Road
• July 12th, 2014 Fun in the Garden – Chesterfield Valley Nursery -16825 N. Outer Rd
• August 2nd, 2014 Butterfly Gardening – Faust park, 15185 Olive Blvd, Sophia M. Sachs Butterfly House & Faust Historical Village Herbs & Heirloom plants
• September 12th, 2014 Plant fall color – Sherwood Forest Nursery & Garden Center, 2651 Barrett Station Road
• October 4th, 2014 Topic to be decided – For the Garden by Haefner’s, 6704 Telegraph Road.
• November 4th, 2014 Open
• December 6th, 2014 Holiday Decorations – Sherwood Forest Nursery & Garden Center, 2651 Barrett Station Road

Skyview Drive In Movie

http://www.skyview-drive-in.com/Movie_Listing_00.htm

Prices: Adults $10 each, Children (12 and under) 2 Free* per each paying adult, Each additional child $3, Cash Only

Fair St. Louis

http://www.fairsaintlouis.org/

4^th of July Weekend

Summer Parks & Rec guide for St. Louis:

http://www.stlouisco.com/Portals/8/docs/Document%20Library/parks/PDFs/AG.pdf

Faust Park – Summer Series

http://www.chesterfieldmochamber.com/summer-concert-series

June 3^rd – August 12^th

Opens at 5:15 p.m. Concerts are from 7-9 p.m.

Festival of the Little Hills

http://www.festivalofthelittlehills.com/

August 15-17^th Historic Main Street & Frontier Park, St. Charles

Festival of Nations

http://www.festivalofnationsstl.org/schedule.html

August 23-24th, Tower Grove Park

Fox Theatre Backstage Tours     

http://www.fabulousfox.com/fox_theatre_tours.aspx

Tues/Thurs/Sat                

10:30 a.m. 1.5 hours long

$8 Adults, Seniors/Students/Children $6

Missouri Botanical Garden

http://www.missouribotanicalgarden.org/things-to-do/events/event-details/sreventid/1082/eventmonth/5/eventyear/2014.aspx

Nature Connects, Art with LEGO Bricks

May 24^th Sept. 7^th

9 a.m. – 5 p.m.

Laumeier Sculpture Park

http://www.laumeiersculpturepark.org/programs_events/art_fair

Event Hours:

·         Friday, May 9: 6-10pm

·         Saturday, May 10: 10am-8pm

·         Sunday, May 11: 10am-5pm

Admission:

$10 adults and ages 12 and up
$5 for children ages 6-11
Members and children under 6 are free

Taste of Clayton

http://www.tasteofclayton.com/  

Sunday June 1

Downtown Clayton

Taste of St. Louis

http://tastestl.com/

September 19-21^st

Moved to Chesterfield Amphitheater

Whitaker Music Festival

http://www.missouribotanicalgarden.org/things-to-do/events/signature-events/whitaker-music-festival.aspx

Wednesdays, June 4 to August 6
Music begins at 7:30 p.m.
Last entry at 9 p.m.
Free admission after 5 p.m.
The Children’s Garden remains open with free admission from 5 to 7 p.m.

·         June 4                   Peter Martin Quartet

·         June 11                 Al Holliday & the East Side Rhythm Band

·         June 18                 Marsha Evans & the Coalition

·         June 25                 Javier Mendoza

·         July 2                     Old Salt Union

·         July 9                     Big Brother Thunder & the Master Balsters

·         July 16                   Nigel Mooney

·         July 23                   Augusta Bottoms Consort

·         July 30                   Melissa Neels Band

·         Aug 6                     Gene Dobbs Bradford Blues Experience

Harvest Festival

http://www.augusta-chamber.org/events/event/augustas-8th-annual-harvest-festival/

Sept 19 begins at 5 p.m.

Augusta

Chesterfield Amphitheater

http://www.chesterfieldamphitheater.com/city-concert-series.html

Concerts:

·         May 10^th               St. Louis Civic Orchestra                6-8 p.m.

·         June 7^th                Wayman’s Revelation                    8-10 p.m.

Movies:

·         May 30^th               Planes                                                   8-10 p.m.

·         June 13^th              Frozen                                                  8-10 p.m.

·         July 25^th                Despicable Me 2                               8-10 p.m.

Summer Concert Series at Soldiers Memorial TBA

Jungle Boogie at the Zoo 

http://www.stlzoo.org/events/calendarofevents/ 

5 p.m.

·         Friday May 23rd

·         Friday May 30^th

·         Friday June 6^th

·         Friday June 13^th

·         Friday June 27^th

·         Friday July 4^th

·         Friday July 11^th

·         Friday July 18th

·         Wednesday July 23^rd Jammin at the Zoo 6 p.m.

·         Friday July 25^th

·         Friday Aug 1^st

·         Friday Aug 8^th

·         Friday Aug 15^th

·         Friday Aug 22^nd

·         Wednesday Aug 27^th Jammin’ at the Zoo 6 p.m.

·         Friday Aug 29^th

Purina Farms 

http://www.purinafarms.com/event-calendar

·         April 26^th              StL Disc Dogs Spring Friendly Flying disc Competition 10 a.m.

·         June 14-15          Countrytime Bluegrass Festival & Kids Country Carnival

·         July 12-13            Disc Dog Hot Jam Flying Disc Competition

·         August 24            Petapalooza 11 a.m. – 4 p.m.

Wehrenberg Summer Series 

http://www.wehrenberg.com/presenting.aspx?pid=356

Now $1 each 

Wednesday & Thursday 10 a.m.

Town Square Schedule

·         June 4/5               Turbo

·         June 11/12          The Lego Movie

·         June 18/19          The Croods

·         June 25/26          Epic

·         July 2/3                 Despicable Me 2

·         July 9/10              The Smurfs 2

·         July 16/17            Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs 2

·         July 23/24            Rio 2

·         July 30/31            The Nut Job

·         Aug 6/7                Mr. Peabody & Sherman

Chesterfield Galaxy/St. Charles/O’Fallon 15

·         June 4/5               The Smurfs 2

·         June 11/12          Despicable Me 2

·         June 18/19          Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs 2

·         June 25/26          Turbo

·         July 2/3                 The Lego Movie

·         July 9/10              The Croods

·         July 16/17            Epic

·         July 23/24            The Nut Job

·         July 30/31            Mr. Peabody & Sherman

·         Aug 6/7                Rio 2

Mid Rivers/Des Peres

·         June 4/5               Epic

·         June 11/12          The Croods

·         June 18/19          Despicable Me 2

·         June 25/26          The Lego Movie

·         July 2/3                 Turbo

·         July 9/10              Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs 2

·         July 16/17            The Smurfs 2

·         July 23/24            Mr. Peabody & Sherman

·         July 30/31            Rio 2     

·         Aug 6/7                The Nut Job

Twilight Tuesdays 

http://mohistory.org/twilight-tuesdays

6-8 p.m. @ Missouri History Museum 

·         Michael Fitzgerald Jazz-Tribute to Miles Davis and David Sanborn
Tuesday, April 22 2014 at 6:00 pm

·         FatPocket
Tuesday, April 29 2014 at 6:00 pm

·         Soulard Blues Band
Tuesday, May 6 2014 at 6:00 pm

·         Dogs of Society-A Tribute to Elton John
Tuesday, May 13 2014 at 6:00 pm

·         Groovethang-A Tribute to the Doobie Brothers and 70’s Music
Tuesday, May 20 2014 at 6:00 pm

·         The James Family-A Tribute to Ike and Tina Turner
Tuesday, May 27 2014 at 6:00 pm

The Muny 2014 Season 

https://www.muny.org/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=994&Itemid=100509

·         Billy Elliot                                             June 16-22

·         Tarzan                                                   June 25-July 2

·         The Gershwins Porgy and Bess  July 7-13

·         The Addams Family                         July 14-20

·         Seussical                                              July 22-28

·         Grease                                                 July 31-Aug 8

·         Hello Dolly                                           Aug 11-17

Kimmswick Strawberry Festival 

http://www.cityofkimmswick.org/strawberryfestival/strawberryfestival2014.html

June 7-8 10 a.m. – 5 p.m. 

   

Shakespeare Festival St. Louis 

http://www.sfstl.com/
In Forest Park May 17-June 15, every night except Tuesday 

Union Station

http://www.stlouisunionstation.com/

·         National Train Day, Union Station, May 10^th
http://www.stlouisunionstation.com/event/national-train-day/2145434198

·         Live Music Thursday Nights

And of course the traditional list of things to do in St. Louis that doesn’t involve Schedules (minus the baseball)

·         St. Louis Cardinals http://stlouis.cardinals.mlb.com/schedule/?c_id=stl

·         River City Rascals http://www.rivercityrascals.com/

·         Grants Farm http://anheuser-busch.com/index.php/our-heritage/grants-farm/

·         City Museum http://www.citymuseum.org/site/

·         Forest Park http://www.forestparkforever.org/

o   Missouri History Museum http://mohistory.org/

§  Note: Tuesday special exhibits are free

o   Saint Louis Art Museum http://www.slam.org/

§  Note: Friday special exhibits are free

o   Saint Louis Science Center & Planetarium http://www.slsc.org/

§  Note: check website for Star Party, free at the planetarium, dates vary weather permitting

o   Saint Louis Zoo http://www.stlzoo.org/

o   The Jewel Box https://stlouis-mo.gov/government/departments/parks/parks/Jewel-Box.cfm

·         Lone Elk Park http://www.stlouisco.com/ParksandRecreation/ParkPages/LoneElk

·         World Bird Sanctuary http://www.worldbirdsanctuary.org/

o   Note: Keeper Talks – every Sat. & Sun. Free

·         Gateway Arch http://www.gatewayarch.com/ 

·         Six Flags https://www.sixflags.com/

·         Magic House http://www.magichouse.org/

·         St. Louis Museum of Transportation http://transportmuseumassociation.org/  

·         Contemporary Art Museum http://www.camstl.org/

                 

  

Small steps and the art of allowing

I've been extra emotional over the past few days but I am forging through and feeling optimistic.

It may seem that I spend quite a bit of time on Facebook. For one, it's part of my job as a digital content strategist. For two, I love seeing where people are in their lives - their evolutions, who they surround themselves with nowadays, what parts of their faces they passed along to their children, what they do for work, what they do for fun, where they've traveled, what stirs their emotions - as a people watcher, it's like an online and far more personal version of sitting in the airport. For three, I see it as a bit of a personal archive. I love going back through the pictures and comments I have posted, reminiscing on where I was in life and how things have changed. And, finally, I love reading posts and articles and perspectives and learning new things and uncovering new ways of viewing the world from people. On that, I came across two things that really spoke to me today.
One was this:



I like being subscribed to this "Begin with Yes" page - it's like a daily dose of hope. This particular post spoke to me because I am struggling with my sense if purpose - what's this life about? Is this as good as it gets? Am I doing what I am supposed to be doing? Etc. The good news is that I am learning how to live in the present and to not underestimate the day of small things, as I recently posted. I like, as this image above mentions, the idea that today's small step may be the one that I look back on as a giant leap forward. You just never know, right?

The second bit of brilliance I read today was an article called "The Art of Allowing." I can't even summarize it or do it any sort of justice by providing highlights. If you're at all curious about what it means to deliberately allow people and things to be as they are, I encourage you to read it.

Be blessed today, friends!

From special to snubbed

Man, two year olds can really be hot and cold.

Last night Hannah and I shared a moment that felt very special to me. I was sitting on the floor and she got behind me, put her arms around me, and started rocking me. Then, she broke out into song: "Rock-a-bye, mommy, on the treetop..." She doesn't know all the words so she improvised. It was incredible. I sat there with her little arms around my neck, cherishing the sweetness, feeling like the luckiest.

But, less than half a day later, I woke up to hear her telling daddy that she didn't want much of anything to do with me.

"Let's go wake up mommy," Jason said to Hannah.

"No mommy," she said sternly.

"Well, let's have mommy come get you dressed," Jason told her.

"NO!" She said. "I NO WANT MOMMY!"

Ouch.

Yes, I realize she's two. But it still doesn't feel good to be snubbed! She continued to tell him that she didn't want to see me, didn't want me to change her pants (which is normally fine by me), didn't want me to help her brush her teeth or do her hair or pick out her clothes or do anything.

"Daddy do it!" she said repeatedly.

How can we go from special "rock-a-bye mommy" time to this? I'm sure she will be excited to see me later today when I pick her up from daycare, but it still hurt my feelings. Sometimes I feel like no matter what I do, she will always prefer her father. I know she loves me and needs me and everything, but I wish she would light up for me the way she lights up for him. I am grateful she loves him so much and he definitely deserves her affection. I just have a hard time sometimes when I feel like I'm on the junior varsity team. 

So many of us choose our path based on fear disguised as practicality

This is a minute-long snippet of Jim Carrey's commencement speech to Maharishi University of Management’s class of 2014 that spoke to my heart today:

 

http://www.lifebuzz.com/jim-carrey/#!WR6uf

"You can fail at what you don't want, so you might as well take a chance on doing what you love."

Out of retirement and onto the green.

It was kinda like this.

Maybe this what Brett Favre feels like every time he signs another football contract. Or perhaps what Jay-Z felt like when he released his Last One, Guys - I Swear album. Either way, coming out of retirement is not only trendy, but necessary to remain relevant, so that's what today is all about.

I'm breaking out my clubs, and ending my golf retirement. Whoa.

The last time I golfed was a special time. I was pregnant with Hannah, and I was really freaking hungry. A group of us had gone to play a round at the local par 3. I couldn't have cared less about how I was performing - it had been a long day and mama was ready for a burrito.

We approached the 18th hole and I muttered something about - this better be fast. And it was. It was as fast as a hole could go.

I hit the ball - very poorly, I might add - and it shot down and diagonally across the green. It hit the edge of a bunker. It rolled up and a little northeastern toward the hole. I hear Jason say, "Holy crap, that's gonna be close!"

No, no, no, sir. Not close. IN.

"HOLE IN ONE!"

I threw my club in the air and everyone jumped and yelled. Someone hi-fived me. I think it may have been Jesus because this was a freaking miracle.

We yelled and screamed and I hurried up into the clubhouse because I was seriously starving by now. They took my picture for their "hole in one" wall. Some sucker at the bar made a comment about how I am supposed to buy everyone a round (look, dude, if mama can't drink, ain't nobody drinking). Then I went to Chevy's Fresh Mexican and had myself a burrito. Dang good!

So, that was well over two years ago, and I have been busy managing my procreation and haven't hit the greens since. But, today, my dear sister-in-law invited me to participate in a fundraising golf tournament, and I obliged. Since the last time I played I have put on 30 lbs, made a human, and herniated a disc in my spine, so here's hoping this is mostly painless. I'm not shooting for any holes-in-one, but in the rare case it does happen, I will head out for another celebratory burrito and definitely hang up the clubs for good. It doesn't get much better than that.

Do not despise these small beginnings

I have a condition called "perfectionistic paralysis." It means that I have trouble doing certain things unless I think I can do them perfectly. The condition is particularly prevalent when it comes to things in which I am emotionally invested.

I used to paint a lot when I was growing up. I haven't really painted in awhile.

I have written a lot of poems and songs that have never seen another human's eyes or ears. I finally picked up a guitar the other day for the first time in over 2 years.

My head is filled with "shoulds." I should just do these things anyway. I should be better at them than I am. I should be invested. I should carve out the time to do them. I should want to be passionate. I should feel differently about it.

I've tried. I don't yet. I am in the process of changing my mind, and it is hard. I have to come to terms with the fact that I may not be perfect at these passions in order to alleviate my paralysis. I have to take simple steps and accept my own resistance in order to surrender.

Zechariah 4:10 says, "Do not despise these small beginnings, for the LORD rejoices to see the work begin..."

Can just beginning be good enough for me? Is perfectionism really anything more than preoccupation with the end of something? The final product?

This is my confession and commitment to try to accept each day for what it is and realize what it's not. It's not the end. It's always the beginning, and it may feel small, and that's OK.